Tuesday, April 13, 2010

no charm left

Jamie was sure of it. He had no power of persuasion over Sebastian now. He was as good as gone. Forever. Perhaps.

How could he think he could have possibly shaped Sebastian into anything now. Anyhow? Louie had set it straight. Sebastian was back with him now. And it was normal. All was normal. Jamie had to live with that. He did. He didn't want to because he loved Sebastian, after all. He'd be a father, a brother, what ever Sebastian needed, he supposed. But it was highly unlikely, it would be neither from now on.

As it was, his father had taken off with Ingrid, on a European  poker tour. Naturally, his father never hit completely rock bottom. He was always up for one last chance and naturally, he'd go big when he had one. And with the lovely, yet smitten Ingrid on his arm, Jamie supposed they deserved each other. Oh, his father, could hardly bother with Sebastian, after all..he was that bastard his wife had before she took her own life. It was as if he had nothing to do with it. Never would.

"Well, it was good to know him, when we did." Jamie told his brother Colin about the matter.

"I don't believe you. Quit acting as if Sebastian has died on us. He hasn't. At least not yet. He is our brother." Colin still had hope that Sebastian would see they were only looking out for him.

"What's gotten into that head of yours? He hates us. And he has every right too." Jamie found no hope in lingering in this old mess. It was done. There were things to do. Each still had a job, and there were people in their lives who counted on them.

"You know, he has home here. He'll come back when he's good and ready." Colin told him.

"Yeah, well, good and ready might be a long time coming." Jamie wasn't counting on it.

4 comments:

cait said...

Jamie needs more faith in Sebastian.

fan fic said...

I hope sebastian finds his way back.

Meg said...

I think Sebastian will come back eventually.

lily said...

Oh, Jamie needs more faith.